Wake me up when June ends

June is an imperfect month for me. Loosing everything i treasure...
May be i lost you coz u too were born on this month and i treasured you

Reminiscing School days

School days was fun .I liked everything in school - Blue uniform ,black shoes, (Un)tied hair, Friends etc … more than all I love the bicycle ride with dad , I tell him everything happened in the School ,.. but not that I was sent out of the class room .. Eventually dad came to know one day , when guy from my class ask me in front of him . Next day he stood next to me outside the class room ;)..

It was one of the days when I felt rebellious against the whole world .
I fought with my friends,
 Mrs.Hema send me out of the class room,
Dad did not come to pick me...

Too much anger on my head and weight on my back, I was walking on the road, that was then I saw him, He must be 16 or 17. I must be 8 may be little older or little younger. He was happy the day when I was not .He sang something looking at me... Immediately a word popup from my mouth and said some thing bad to him. .. He stopped his bike and waited for me to reach him. I had only two choices either run away or face it.
I decided to take the second one .I went close by...

He-”How dare you call me like that?”

Me-  “How, dare u sing at me?”

He couldn't stop laughing when I replied back.

He... “You, little one you have too much guts...”

Me- (Silent)

Only i know I was scared to death.

I kept walking, little faster than before …

Frozen Moments

Usual
Boredom on a Sunday
Loneliness


Unusual
Me Visiting Church
Snow Visiting Me


Hate
Sleepless night
Few people now

Love
Snow on unopened eyelids
People who show the meaning

Last year this time
Snow storm& Storm in Life
Escaped one not the other


This year this time
Same snow storm
No reason to escape


Missing
----


Expecting
More Snow

Scary dreams ,Sleepless nights

Last night....
...I had Scary dream, Sleepless night which I don’t want
...I don’t have Comfort arms ,which I had once
May be I am not too young to have one, at least in the place where I stay now.

I was once the youngest Roomie ....

We 3 lived in a two bedroom apartment, I was given the privilege of a single room , while the other two had the other one

I never cooked neither they ask me to.
Kitchen was a place where I entertain them  with stories .It may be about the incidents of that day, the day before or sometimes a year before.

We had…

..Dinner.., Together;

..Stories.., Together;

..Sleep, Not-Together.

I slept on my room while they  slept on theirs. Though I have been invited many times to share the room, I always said "Not enough room for me".

At any time dreams are not faraway from me, especially the Night mares.

Night mares never let me sleep alone; I woke them  in the middle of night and asked 

"Shall i sleep here". 

They, either in their deep sleep or may be they knew i don’t take much space; they made room for me to sleep there.

Always on next day the word will come as a command ”Tonight you are sleeping in our room, else no space for you”. Never Listened to them, I slept alone again.

But every time I go , they made room for me to sleep. Also they never failed to say the same words next morning.

Usual sunday

Am I religious ? No ,

Am I not Religious ? No..

I am the Person who wants to go to church regulary not that i am so religious ,may be i am brought up like that .

Had latenight tired sleep of doing nothing woke up on sunday morning peeked out of the comforter to check the weather ,It is gloomy like most of the days , Looked for my mobile ,It is always either me or my mobile will be on the otherside of where we both start together in the night.

I am the last person who always sits in the last bench in the church. I never listened to the preaching though i tried hard to listen .
I entered for a hym which i always love to listen. After the hym ..Priest with no peace said "Peace be with you" .
Our Response "And also be with you".
Priest -"Share the Peace with one another" .
A couple shared their peace by kissing each other on their lips..

American grandma shared her peace by touching my head

African lady shared it by hugging me..

A phillipine guy by hand shaking ..

There was this Indian guy neither he nor I wants to touch,hug or shake hands ..we looked at each other and said at the same time "Peace".

People may come ,People may go

What was happening these days in my life? many ... People came ,People went and People are going from my life

There is this girl whom i met 8 years back.We don't know each other when we first land there ,
we don't know how long we will be together .We have different opinions different taste but still we were same.
Days passed by fate took us apart and lost contact . Few days back heard something is going on her life ,Though we were miles apart  i knew what she must be going through now . Called her after 3 years . I heard the caller tune from her phone.some strange song singing in a strange language for me. Not in a mood to listen,i was worried what will be the reaction from her side when she hears me .
I heard the voice from other side. I just said "Hello"..
There replies the voice from other side "Shobi is that you???.." . No matter how many years you lost contact of ur closed ones they will remain the same -   People came :):)

I met this guy through a small window,who came into my life uninvited.I know i opened doors for him to walk in,But uninvited still. I can't accept that I'd invited trouble.

He made me laugh for no reason,he made me cry for no reason but he left me for some reason

These days he is ...
...no more mail in my inbox,
....deleted number in my mobile,
.....memory that i carry with a heavy heart. -People went

There is this another girl who came into my life 2 years back..She gives me my space and have her own space always..
We spoke a little , sometimes it had a big meaning.
Usually we speak..
.."dinner?"
.."6:oo PM at Harvard?"
.."Movie ..tonight?"
.."Shopping?"

but unusually she said.. "I am moving from this place" - People are going..

Is India Shining???

I can see tha pain in their eyes .

When this will end ????






Ps- Pictures taken from forwarded mail